It has come to my realization that I have a lot to build on and digest from the boot camp.
One of the few things I have noticed with my personality since I returned to Edmonton, is that I become more outspoken.
I can't help but think about Matador's advice on the personality matrix. I need to work on the base of my character/avatar. What kind of person do I want to display myself as? How am I going to take the necessary steps to get to that point? And what traits should I focus the most attention on?
I want to portray myself who is fun, playful and warm - while being un-needy. This is of course my main foundations for my emotional state, and how I should be all the time. I want to be percieved as someone who is ambitious - I want to re-focus my attention in becoming an owner of my own line of bar/club chain. Becoming a master Venusian Artist is still one of my priorties, but theres more to life than picking up women, and its building the foundation of who you are.
Once thats set up - the rest will follow. Besides, imagine the social value of owning one of the most hip night clubs in LA.
I want to be interesting and fascinating, so when I speak, i create a sense of awe and excitment. Where people are on the edge of their seats and biting every word. Not because I believe in the material, but I believe in me.
I want to be percieved as a loyal and trustworthy person. So when shit goes down hill, I'm the one to turn to. And I can be relyed on for such reasons. This in turn will build a stronger bond to my social circle.
To tie to the point of being fascinating, I also want to articulate the way I speak and emote. If its true that body language speaks for 80% of communication, I need to portray that. Facial expressions, and the energy and enthusiasm I put into my body and fluid motions will effect my Charismatic edge.
I also want to be known as a risk taker. I'm sick of sitting on the side lines waiting for things to happen. I want adventures, stories of how crazy something went, because of a decision I made in the heat of the moment. I want stories that are worth telling, so I need to live them first.
I want to be strong and disciplined. I would very much like to get back into the martial arts, building the sense of pride and calm mind set with the art. I miss the discpline of a strong body. If i can't get back into Tae Kwon Do, because of conflicting schedules, I should at the very least get back into shape.
And finally, I want to be humorous. I want people to say, wow, that guy is hilarious! He's just amazing! So I need to focus on this, and figure what makes someone humorous and fun. I have a general idea... but i need to step outside my comfort zone.
More to follow on my own personal thoughts.... I need to get them in words to digest every piece. =) But I'm making progress!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Bootcamp for the month of Sept 2008. Money well spent.
Toronto Bootcamp (Sept 19-21 2008)
Charisma's Point of View:
I had missed the opportunity a year and a half ago to attend a Toronto Bootcamp with Mystery. Due to actions outside of my control, I was extremely disappointed (some would even say Heart Crushed) when my wing at the time (Spillz) attended it, and I was told that it was Life Changing Experience when he returned from it.
So i sought to have that experience, and to put it lightly...
He wasn't exaggerating.
The moment I walked through the doors, to the moment we went to the venues of choice for the night - I was enlighten. Mystery was a phenomenal teacher, who helped me pin point where my sticking points were and broke down the system of The Mystery Method in a clear, and concise structure.
I was blown away at the way Matador elaborated on the emotional state and the breakdown on how to create one's own identity. I will admit - that I had been following the mystery method with as little info I had from the novel, 'The Game, Penetrating the Secret Society of The Pickup Artist' and 'The Mystery Method, How to Get Beautiful Women into Bed'. But i always felt, that I was missing one vital piece.
My inner game needed drastic work. I needed to rewire my frame of mind, and break down the components that make me - me, and re-arrange them in a way that speaks the character I want to display. With Matador's spiritual advice and his Personality Matrix, i can now map what I need to work on.
And that alone - just the realization, was enough to send me in the right direction.
Mystery and Matador's advice went hand in hand when going into depth with the mystery method. The routines, sound bites were useful in the field, and will build a strong foundation to create my own.
The Field itself was amazing!
I watched Mystery and Matador create social proof, I saw Matador approach sets in such a way - that I believed were to be counter-intuitive, and watched in bafflement, as he close sets with his own unique style.
What an inspiration!
Mystery had a very strong grasp of the philosophy of the universe, that I found it very easy to get dragged into. Which in turn allowed me to let go of any self doubt, and push a little harder in the field. 'The Moment is "Now".' He also had a very contagious ability to enlighten the energy level in the body, and keep the mind in a positive frame of mind - regardless of the amount of sets that were blown out. (Even when the mind and body was exhausted due to the large amounts of approach/sets; he had some ability to push us into yet another set)
There surprisingly even was day game throughout the bootcamp. The opportunity just arose, and Mystery grasped it - and what an opportunity it was! I'm glad he took it.
Matador's description in being slow and articulate my actions when speaking, has already made a difference at home, leaving me the feeling that I can be fascinating. ..Something I lacked with my story telling abilities.
It was a bootcamp that made up for the loss of the missed opportunity from a year ago, and I feel content and was impressed and felt like i truly got the value i put in my money's worth.
Spillz worded it best to me...'It's an investment,' and i strongly agree!
Now armed with the skill sets and tools, I will push forward, and hopefully show myself and everyone that I can be a Master Venusian Artist.
(step 1 complete )
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- This was the post I placed on The Venusian Arts website, under the review section.
- I'm well aware it's not a field report, but I have section I will add just below dedicated to the sets that I opened.
- I'm sorry to miss out on the seminar on that weekend here, maybe next time I'll be there and combine both experiences.
- I really want to find a dedicated wing man whose willing to go out on a regular basis
Now without further hesitation, the real field report for that weekend.
19 Sept 2008
1) Mixed Set (I never opened mixed sets before this weekend, and because of that Mystery focused his attention in defeating that sticking point.) Opened with a two part kiss opener - did not hook with the girls, so I couldn't neg the target. The guy was very receptive and came later to approach me to shoot the shit. Should have backwards merged. My voice wasn't loud enough and didn't body rock.
2) Accidentally reopened the same set later, without realizing (approach their friends who were around the corner and later joined in). This time it went smoothly, and managed to lock myself in (Never locked in till this point either), and was able to discover my target of choice was with her boyfriend and they were celebrating a birthday party (how do you all know each other?) Matador tried to help me wing the set, but I was unprepared for the interrupt, and watched him helplessly control the whole set with his high energy. He later ran his summary on the set to me, and what my good points were and what needed work.
3) Ran a mixed set inside, with the '2 girls fighting outside opener'. Once again, disarmed the guy, and than stacked another opener while trying to merge with another set (which once again, was part of the same set, birthday party - so it was a 8 set)
Was able to move the target to the smoking section, isolated her, dealt with an interrupt, did some kino escalation (felt a little awkward, but we didn't go through that at the seminar yet, so i was winging it. it eventually led to a kiss close. but i felt like i lost the set later through the night. Mystery watched the set and was impressed, and told me they would focus on kino the following day. He really elaborated on the fact on slowing my speech and become more articulant. And smile....smile more.
4) Ran 4 other sets, but they didn't hook very well. I felt at a loss when it came to DHV stories. Mystery later approached me and explained that not all DHVs need to be expressed through verbal actions. With that, he armed me with a routine and pushed me into another mixed set outside.
5) The set went fantastic! There was alot of energy, and they were very friendly people. We were talking about nothing, yet I was still the interest point (thanks to Mystery's Routine). I felt I could have locked in, but outside, it didn't really matter. I negged the target playfully and she responded in a flirtatious way. But wasn't able to use kino, because I wasn't sure what the guy's intention was. Note: Use the way point, How do you all know each other. Ejected the set on a good note.
6) Went direct on a seated set, and was just playful with the target. 4 mixed set. The energy i had from last set was brought to this one. Locked in, kino escalation, and tried to backwards merged. However, in attempt to introduce her to my friends, she was paranoid if i was acquainted with Mystery - which I was. She knew he was a PUA from his TV show. ...Fuck. Tried to do damage control, but lost that set afterwards.
Ran a few more sets, but there wasn't much to comment on.
20 Saturday 2008
Short version - Went to a club that consisted of 3 floors, four dance floors, a bathroom bar (that alone blew my mind), and a smoking section. With some help from the instructors and some of some former students (spillz and prophet), I ran 35+ sets. Alot blew open, because my head wasn't in the right mind set after i had a few negative replies. Caught on later, had a different mind set, and just let loose and had fun, which in turned brought more positive results to my sets.
Matador came in on one set, paused the interaction, told me what i was doing wrong in the middle of it, and basically left and i continued in front of the girls as if nothing happened. Amazing - it was as IF it NEVER happened. lol.
Earlier that day, we did some day sarging, and managed to close a cute HB 8, but never called her that night to see if she wanted to tag along. Could have used her as a pivot - ah well. Live and learn. There was too much info being thrown in my head to digest.
21 September 2008
Went out yet again on a sunday, and this wasn't supposed to happen - but due to the small size of the class, we figured 'why not?'
Ran a few sets in the empty bars (goes to show you don't need them packed), locked in, kino escalated, negged, had fun, was interesting, but wasn't able to isolate (wasn't attracted, she was practice). Mystery watched the whole set, even introduced himself at one point, helped me with the kino escalation, and after that, sat back and watched the whole interaction.
Overall, amazing experience! Now I'm hopping to carry these skills on to the street and bars of Edmonton, and master them to the degree when it comes time to go to Toronto to move down - I'll be ready.
Charisma signing out.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Stylelife Challenge - Day 2
Credit to Neil Strauss, Author of The Game and Rules of The Game - aka Style.
Mission 1 - Set Your Goals
1) List 3 Accomplishments That Would Make your Happier
2) What are the reasons these accomplishments will make you happier?
I will become a Master Venusian Artist (max 4 words) who will revive Project Hollywood (max 4 words) within 2 (weeks/months/years)
4) List Three specific results that will let you know you reached your goal.
I will have dated over 50 women (HB 8 or Higher Value)
I will have trained 10 afcs from the ground up
I will have paid my debts off and living in LA
(Goal Writing Complete)
Mission 2 - Look Into their Eyes
(have a conversation with 5 strangers again, but take note of their eye color)
Brown
Blue
Green
Brown
Green
(5/5 passed)
Mission 1 - Set Your Goals
1) List 3 Accomplishments That Would Make your Happier
- Get a Secure Job That Pays Well
- To be more physically Fit (Military Shape)
- To have an abundance of women in my life and becoming very social.
2) What are the reasons these accomplishments will make you happier?
- I will be secure income wise, and I don't have to stress over debts and I can go out and have fun.
- I will feel good because I will move in confidence with accordance with my body, and I will be more energetic and pumped to go out.
- I am always happier around a girl.
I will become a Master Venusian Artist (max 4 words) who will revive Project Hollywood (max 4 words) within 2 (weeks/months/years)
4) List Three specific results that will let you know you reached your goal.
I will have dated over 50 women (HB 8 or Higher Value)
I will have trained 10 afcs from the ground up
I will have paid my debts off and living in LA
(Goal Writing Complete)
Mission 2 - Look Into their Eyes
(have a conversation with 5 strangers again, but take note of their eye color)
Brown
Blue
Green
Brown
Green
(5/5 passed)
Style Life Challenge Day 1
Credit to Neil Strauss, Author of The Game and Rules of The Game - aka Style.
Mission 1 - Evaluate Yourself:
1)Write one or two sentences describing how you believe other people currently perceive you:
2) Write one or two sentences describing how you like other people to perceive you:
3) List 3 behaviors or characteristics you would like to change about your character:
4) List 3 behaviors or characteristics you would like to adopt:
(List Complete)
Mission 2 - Make Small Talk
Talk to five different strangers. The discussion doesn't have to be thoroughly thought out. Asking about the weather, or simply saying 'Hi.' The response doesn't matter.
(5/5 Passed)
Mission 1 - Evaluate Yourself:
1)Write one or two sentences describing how you believe other people currently perceive you:
- People view me as an outgoing individual with an abundance of energy. I can become quite dramatic, but my heart is in the right place.
2) Write one or two sentences describing how you like other people to perceive you:
- I want people to perceive me as someone who is cool, laid back, confident, a leader. I want to be considered the social key piece that holds a group together.
3) List 3 behaviors or characteristics you would like to change about your character:
- Radical Tangent Behavior and Energy
- Inner Game (give my self more self value)
- Speech Patterns
4) List 3 behaviors or characteristics you would like to adopt:
- Natural - Cool Aura
- Stronger Frame - Better Health
- Fluent Conversationalist - Story Teller
(List Complete)
Mission 2 - Make Small Talk
Talk to five different strangers. The discussion doesn't have to be thoroughly thought out. Asking about the weather, or simply saying 'Hi.' The response doesn't matter.
(5/5 Passed)
Monday, July 28, 2008
Jasper July 24th 2008
(Field Report posted by Charisma from the puaedmonton.freeforums,org)
Hey guys - sorry for the lack of replies. i been out camping with some close friends and i hadn't really had an opportunity to sit down and read all of your posts. Though I'm working on it.
Very impressed with Burgundy's FRs! (if any of you actually know me, I'm a big fan of Field Reports. Because Theory is out the window, and results are seen due to practice.) In fact his posts has caused a re-ignition in the flame inside me to go and open on a regular basis.
Putting that aside for a minute; I'm going to go off on my game that I ran at a restaurant while we came back from the hot springs in Jasper.
The six of us are seated, looking at the menus contemplating on what to order. I've mentioned the game to my very close friends, because its part of my life - and i don't keep anything hidden about my personal life, since it makes me who i am.
So finally the waitress comes up, and we shoot the shit a little. I don't remember exactly what I said to break the ice (all i know it was random comment for fun and good measure). Before long we're bantering back and forth, teasing and playfully insulting each other.
Punch in the arm - game is on!
She wasn't fantastically attractive, but she was cute, and her energy was very addictive. So i figure i show a little bit of what i learned in the society, and show my friends that I'm not all talk.
At one point she brings the main meal, and she took my fork earlier for the appetizers. So she hands me a plate of pasta with a spoon. I look at her with a slight smile. 'Are you trying to send me subtle messages now? I mean, i know you're not the kinda of person to go direct, but come on, spooning? Keep it clean.'
She laughs and responds something along the same lines in a sarcastic playful way.
'But see, i already see past your plans to screw me over, and all i have to do is lean back and steal a fork from another table.'
She rushes over and grabs every fork from every table and holds them up with an air of triumph. 'What now mr.big shot? *laughs*'
Anyways, she walks over to help her other customers; meanwhile one of mu buddies is telling me, 'Holy crap man, she totally digs you! haha, you should try to get her number, that would totally be smooth!'
She comes back a second time, and i barely acknowledge her existence as she tries to banter again.
Meanwhile as she leaves, i realized i haven't got her name yet. So i pulled one of my favorite lines with a semi twist.
'Ah, Sarah; you know, we can't keep doing our little dance of ours. Its shit like this that broke us up last time. Sigh. You know, you never gave me back my Justin Timberlake Cds.'
She laughs and tells me her name isn't Sarah.
'What?! See, we been torn for so long, it feels like i don't even know you anymore - *pause*'
She replies...'Katie...'
' - Katie. Jesus, what the hell am i going to do with you?'
Anyways, we all shot the shit a bit more, and it was time to split the bills.
"So, i'll pay for the two pasta plates, poutine, drinks and...put your number on there as well'
She looks at me surprised and laughs, 'Nice.'
But i never got the number. Maybe it was because I didn't come on serious enough, and made it too playful, or she already logically thought that i was an Out of Towner, and it would never work.
But i don't play on excuses. I believe that if i pressed a little harder i could have got that number (not that i needed it, but i wanted it to prove to myself that im getting better.)
Anyways - Hopefully I get more FRs up in the future, and I hope to read all of yours.
- Peace;
Charisma
Hey guys - sorry for the lack of replies. i been out camping with some close friends and i hadn't really had an opportunity to sit down and read all of your posts. Though I'm working on it.
Very impressed with Burgundy's FRs! (if any of you actually know me, I'm a big fan of Field Reports. Because Theory is out the window, and results are seen due to practice.) In fact his posts has caused a re-ignition in the flame inside me to go and open on a regular basis.
Putting that aside for a minute; I'm going to go off on my game that I ran at a restaurant while we came back from the hot springs in Jasper.
The six of us are seated, looking at the menus contemplating on what to order. I've mentioned the game to my very close friends, because its part of my life - and i don't keep anything hidden about my personal life, since it makes me who i am.
So finally the waitress comes up, and we shoot the shit a little. I don't remember exactly what I said to break the ice (all i know it was random comment for fun and good measure). Before long we're bantering back and forth, teasing and playfully insulting each other.
Punch in the arm - game is on!
She wasn't fantastically attractive, but she was cute, and her energy was very addictive. So i figure i show a little bit of what i learned in the society, and show my friends that I'm not all talk.
At one point she brings the main meal, and she took my fork earlier for the appetizers. So she hands me a plate of pasta with a spoon. I look at her with a slight smile. 'Are you trying to send me subtle messages now? I mean, i know you're not the kinda of person to go direct, but come on, spooning? Keep it clean.'
She laughs and responds something along the same lines in a sarcastic playful way.
'But see, i already see past your plans to screw me over, and all i have to do is lean back and steal a fork from another table.'
She rushes over and grabs every fork from every table and holds them up with an air of triumph. 'What now mr.big shot? *laughs*'
Anyways, she walks over to help her other customers; meanwhile one of mu buddies is telling me, 'Holy crap man, she totally digs you! haha, you should try to get her number, that would totally be smooth!'
She comes back a second time, and i barely acknowledge her existence as she tries to banter again.
Meanwhile as she leaves, i realized i haven't got her name yet. So i pulled one of my favorite lines with a semi twist.
'Ah, Sarah; you know, we can't keep doing our little dance of ours. Its shit like this that broke us up last time. Sigh. You know, you never gave me back my Justin Timberlake Cds.'
She laughs and tells me her name isn't Sarah.
'What?! See, we been torn for so long, it feels like i don't even know you anymore - *pause*'
She replies...'Katie...'
' - Katie. Jesus, what the hell am i going to do with you?'
Anyways, we all shot the shit a bit more, and it was time to split the bills.
"So, i'll pay for the two pasta plates, poutine, drinks and...put your number on there as well'
She looks at me surprised and laughs, 'Nice.'
But i never got the number. Maybe it was because I didn't come on serious enough, and made it too playful, or she already logically thought that i was an Out of Towner, and it would never work.
But i don't play on excuses. I believe that if i pressed a little harder i could have got that number (not that i needed it, but i wanted it to prove to myself that im getting better.)
Anyways - Hopefully I get more FRs up in the future, and I hope to read all of yours.
- Peace;
Charisma
Saturday, July 12, 2008
The Epiphany Post 1
2008-07-13
I’m up…
I can’t seem to get to sleep. Words are somewhat lacking at the moment, but I truly feel I need to get my thoughts into place.
There have been some interesting things that have been going on, ever since I quit the military service.
I now work outside the trade of the technical side, pursuing a career in the Retail world. I am now a sales consultant over at The Brick downtown in
I’m chasing after a nineteen year old woman, who has no idea what she wants. I have placed a deposit on a mystery method conference for the month of September, and I am currently broke – due to a crazy obsession to waste my money on pathetic porn clips online.
Drama has been continually been unfolding in every direction; especially with my friends, and JD.
But, I believe the real reason I’m writing this, at this accursed of an hour, is to try to get my life back on track, and take one step back and realize what’s going on.
First, I should begin with my passion for the Venusian Arts.
Yes, I want to become a master Pick Up Artist and all it implies. But I don’t think I have fully rationalized the situation yet. What is a PUA?
A PUA is a man who is able to attract women of his choice (with tons of practice) and seduce them and bed them. For the longest time I told myself, it wasn’t manipulation. But after attending a conference/meeting a few days ago at the
I been going around bragging to everyone that I’m pursuing the art. With little or no success. I’ve been more talk than anything, and haven’t shown any action.
What do I have showing for me so far? A girl who I danced with at
But here I am….my dick is still dry, and I am no closer to my goal than I was when I was in the military.
Why did I come back to
To be near Friends?
To fall into the common trap everyone falls into once they’ve gotten comfortable with their lives?
I’ve lost all ambition. All drive. Everything that I worked hard for to reach this point has been for naught. And now I’m getting slightly pissed.
So what am I going to do about it?
I’m going to begin working on my blog site again. Start getting field reports written on a constant basis. Yes, my banking and budgeting has turned to shit in the past couple of months. And I haven’t approached any women, or at least as many I would like to; in the past couple of months.
I’ve gotten numbers, on two things. Balls and looks alone. No social value.
I need more than that. I need to rebuild from the ground up.
So lets focus on the three main points that is discussed in the Venusian Arts, and hopefully everything else will start falling into place.
1) Health:
I am, in perhaps one of the worst shapes of my life. I eat poorly, my muscle that I earned from the military has nearly disappeared, because I’m too busy giving into my desire to masturbate on a frequent basis, and playing video games.
What the hell?
There is no excuse for this. There’s a gym upstairs. I buy fruits and veggies but rarely touch them because I am lazy and refuse to cook. I’ve stopped tanning, I barely keep my facial hair under control.
I need to change this tempo. Cliff was the one who told me, that if I don’t put any energy into what I want to do/accomplish, I will receive the exact amount back. This has to change. Starting tomorrow; when I get off work.
2) Wealth:
I need to re-budget, and take control of my online spending frenzy. I will have a 6 grand loan to pay off, and if I don’t take care of this now, I will end up being in a lot of trouble and end up screwing myself over, in healthy foods, a decent social life and any chances of getting a girl and improving my grooming.
3) Love:
This is the area I need the most work in. My family issues won’t be solved any time soon, but at least I can patch things with my brother when he gets home and find out what’s really going on.
I need to start rebuilding the network with the PUAs in
My friends are important to me, and I want to keep them loyal and be loyal to them. So I have to eliminate any stupid drama that may cause future problems. Focus on my current problems and not worry about anyone else’s. I have enough on my shoulders.
If I take care of everything mentioned above, and start sarging on a regular basis, than I can increase my love life dramatically. Maybe, even before the seminar in September begins. I have two months; a lot can be done in that time.
Finally the last thing I need to focus on is mental health. Once I reached a chi in my life, than things can start going my way. Focus on meditation, and perhaps the shun lo work out. Get my ass in gear.
That’s all for now.
Monday, May 5, 2008
FR Random Close
While on the way to West Edmonton Mall; i managed to close a HB7 on the bus.
Method: 'Text Buddies Close' - Charisma
While listening to my mp3, while texting on my phone, I hand her my cell with the words written : 'Hey, I think you're cute as hell =), we should be text buddies'
It resulted in a successful close and number - but also resulted in an instant flake.
Lesson: Therefore, i need comfort in order to get a successful time bridge.
Method: 'Text Buddies Close' - Charisma
While listening to my mp3, while texting on my phone, I hand her my cell with the words written : 'Hey, I think you're cute as hell =), we should be text buddies'
It resulted in a successful close and number - but also resulted in an instant flake.
Lesson: Therefore, i need comfort in order to get a successful time bridge.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Field Report April 24-27
Two Number Closes.
Two Flakes.
Two Failed attempts to pass through attraction.
I'm sitting home on a thursday night in my casual clothing as i relax from another day of work, while checking my msn and email. Suddenly this girl i met via facebook, messages me and piratically begs for me to come out with her and her sister at some bar named Suite 69.
Excuses begin to seep out of my mouth as i type the words, while my heart beats in excitement at the thought of going back into the field. Suddenly my excuses are overcome by my own slef reasoning of interacting with women, have social value the moment i step into the bar and my half wingman by my side.
I won't lie, the night was a blast. True alot of shit happened, Steph got a little over plastered by the time we got there, so much to the point where she had to be taken home. Her sister was a whiney little brat who had the mind set that every guy was a tool...that was until she ran into me. I quickly put her in her place. But she was such a shadey character, that i quickly abadon her to go after two young ladies who seemed to have more value. Me and JD pulled our moves on the dance floor - sadly this was all built on dance game - which i mastered....but it has too many holes and flaws. The dance floor is a trap.
Anyways, we get the girls to dance with us, JD takes the brunette and leaves my target to me. She had the most drawing eyes i ever seen, and i seemed to almost fall in love with this woman on the spot. It was such a rush and the vibe was on. We kissed at the end of the night and made plans to meet up again with her friend on Friday night.
We were flaked, and ended up waiting for 45 minutes for the girls and basically gave them the finger as we bounced from whyte ave to jasper and went to Halo. I was expecting some Venusian Artist friends to be there, but they also flaked.
I didn't blame them, it was retro night, and the music was absolutely crap. But there was a group of women who shot the shit with me and JD, and we quickly got their number as we bounced to the druid and came back again later due to the massive amounts of sausage in the other bar.
But the night took a plunge at the end of the night and me and JD ditched to go home. We had work the next day.
Overall Vicky never returned my texts or acknowledged my phone calls (officially removed from my phone and marked as Failure #1. Jackie is still a work in progress, but she seems somewhat hesitant at the same time. So I'm already classifying her as Failure #2.
So overall, I'm once again with no girls at Level 1 and I'm slowly starting to get pissed off. I was under the impression i was supposed to get better, and right now im watching Spillz become a master in mere moments! I fucking hate this BS!
So I already committed tomorrow as a day dedicated to sarging at the mall. Im tired of little the women walk away from me. I will get better.
I HAVE TO BE!
Two Flakes.
Two Failed attempts to pass through attraction.
I'm sitting home on a thursday night in my casual clothing as i relax from another day of work, while checking my msn and email. Suddenly this girl i met via facebook, messages me and piratically begs for me to come out with her and her sister at some bar named Suite 69.
Excuses begin to seep out of my mouth as i type the words, while my heart beats in excitement at the thought of going back into the field. Suddenly my excuses are overcome by my own slef reasoning of interacting with women, have social value the moment i step into the bar and my half wingman by my side.
I won't lie, the night was a blast. True alot of shit happened, Steph got a little over plastered by the time we got there, so much to the point where she had to be taken home. Her sister was a whiney little brat who had the mind set that every guy was a tool...that was until she ran into me. I quickly put her in her place. But she was such a shadey character, that i quickly abadon her to go after two young ladies who seemed to have more value. Me and JD pulled our moves on the dance floor - sadly this was all built on dance game - which i mastered....but it has too many holes and flaws. The dance floor is a trap.
Anyways, we get the girls to dance with us, JD takes the brunette and leaves my target to me. She had the most drawing eyes i ever seen, and i seemed to almost fall in love with this woman on the spot. It was such a rush and the vibe was on. We kissed at the end of the night and made plans to meet up again with her friend on Friday night.
We were flaked, and ended up waiting for 45 minutes for the girls and basically gave them the finger as we bounced from whyte ave to jasper and went to Halo. I was expecting some Venusian Artist friends to be there, but they also flaked.
I didn't blame them, it was retro night, and the music was absolutely crap. But there was a group of women who shot the shit with me and JD, and we quickly got their number as we bounced to the druid and came back again later due to the massive amounts of sausage in the other bar.
But the night took a plunge at the end of the night and me and JD ditched to go home. We had work the next day.
Overall Vicky never returned my texts or acknowledged my phone calls (officially removed from my phone and marked as Failure #1. Jackie is still a work in progress, but she seems somewhat hesitant at the same time. So I'm already classifying her as Failure #2.
So overall, I'm once again with no girls at Level 1 and I'm slowly starting to get pissed off. I was under the impression i was supposed to get better, and right now im watching Spillz become a master in mere moments! I fucking hate this BS!
So I already committed tomorrow as a day dedicated to sarging at the mall. Im tired of little the women walk away from me. I will get better.
I HAVE TO BE!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
April 11 - 2008
I've done it.
It took some time and alot of grueling effort, but I managed to get a job at the brick as a Sales Associate. I'm quite proud of my job, since everything I use within the Venusian Arts to create rapport with sets, is used to make a sale. Worse. I get paid for it.
I've shown alot of potential and even my two bosses pulled me aside and told me i was deemed for great things. Hell, I've already become one of their top sales writer. 12 thousand dollar sales in one day is not to be looked down upon at all.
Yet I can't help but think that I'm only accomplishing only half of what I could be doing.
The Venusian Arts demands that the three areas of life be maintained at all times. Wealth, Health, and Love. As it currently stands I have an abundance of wealth. At least to survive, pay rent and hit local bars. Which is what I need to begin with for now.
However my health has taken a sharp plunge to the bottom. I'm not nearly as fit as I was three months ago. I'm no longer tonned, and I'm not impressed with that to the slightest bit. Secondly, I have no love life, because I been focusing sorely on work.
Uhm....hello? The Brick job was to increase my social skills in interactions, not destroy my social life.
So where does this lead me? Well, in order to get the body i want i need to do the following. 1) Start working out again. Its as simple as three - four 30 min work outs a day. I can do that after getting back from work. Next, easting healthier - slowly making the transition to that.
Than on my days where i have off, i should sarge at least one of the two days i have off. To at least build a social life again.
So now that work is no longer an issue, I have to build from the ground up on the other aspects while maintaining a balance in the other areas. Shouldn't be too hard.
So let the Gaming Begin!
It took some time and alot of grueling effort, but I managed to get a job at the brick as a Sales Associate. I'm quite proud of my job, since everything I use within the Venusian Arts to create rapport with sets, is used to make a sale. Worse. I get paid for it.
I've shown alot of potential and even my two bosses pulled me aside and told me i was deemed for great things. Hell, I've already become one of their top sales writer. 12 thousand dollar sales in one day is not to be looked down upon at all.
Yet I can't help but think that I'm only accomplishing only half of what I could be doing.
The Venusian Arts demands that the three areas of life be maintained at all times. Wealth, Health, and Love. As it currently stands I have an abundance of wealth. At least to survive, pay rent and hit local bars. Which is what I need to begin with for now.
However my health has taken a sharp plunge to the bottom. I'm not nearly as fit as I was three months ago. I'm no longer tonned, and I'm not impressed with that to the slightest bit. Secondly, I have no love life, because I been focusing sorely on work.
Uhm....hello? The Brick job was to increase my social skills in interactions, not destroy my social life.
So where does this lead me? Well, in order to get the body i want i need to do the following. 1) Start working out again. Its as simple as three - four 30 min work outs a day. I can do that after getting back from work. Next, easting healthier - slowly making the transition to that.
Than on my days where i have off, i should sarge at least one of the two days i have off. To at least build a social life again.
So now that work is no longer an issue, I have to build from the ground up on the other aspects while maintaining a balance in the other areas. Shouldn't be too hard.
So let the Gaming Begin!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
March 08 - What the hell am i waiting for?
It has come to my attention that I am squandering my potential.
I have made so much sacrifice to pursue the Venusian Arts; and now that I finally eliminated one of the biggest obstacles that I personally thought was holding me back - which was the military - I figured I was going to start escalating my to become the level of a master.
Yet here I am, two months after the end of my contract, sitting in this apartment with a dead end job at Bootlegger (which is better than nothing) barely making rent and watching life pass me by. Starring at girls from a distance with a cocky smile on my face thinking to myself, 'I could go out with that' yet go home starring at a disappointed at a reflection of myself in the mirror...
...alone
Where has my Charismatic Influence disappeared to? Where has my ambition disappeared to? Has Project Hollywood Revival become an illusion in my mind? An unreachable goal? Have I been living a lie for the past two years?
NO! I refuse to be beat down. I promised myself that I would exceed any Pick Up Artist. I vowed I would help others reach their dreams, shatter their shells of disappointment.
I have come to far to sit back and let the world take me and become a pawn in its sick twisted game.
I know no one will read this. This blog site has no appeal to anyone. Can I blame them? But this isn't for them. It's for me. I need to place my tangent thoughts and somehow sort through them.
So I had one F-Close with a girl. Had a decent relationship. Destroyed my 'V' card which was mocking me for the three years I was in the military. I been dwelling on that one success, and refused to prove myself anymore. Why?
I pulled Picasso to the side one day at West Edmonton Mall and asked him what his long term goals are. I helped him push to A2. Yet I can't answer my own question? I can't push myself as much as i could, or should?
It wasn't until I took my best friend out for dinner for his birthday, that we both realized we were waiting for life to change our course. He wants to be a famous director - and the man has crazy ideas that would revolutionize the movie department, yet he's made no move to pursue that career. I was realizing, that I was starring at myself in his eyes. I saw potential hidden, an image of a power being hidden in their depths.
Suddenly I changed character. i became Charisma again. Strong, confident, determined. I was painting a picture of promise and success.
Now I have to re-sort my goals, my plans; just as my best friend has done today, to sort his future career. I promise that by Dec 08, I will master the Venusian Arts.
- Charisma
I have made so much sacrifice to pursue the Venusian Arts; and now that I finally eliminated one of the biggest obstacles that I personally thought was holding me back - which was the military - I figured I was going to start escalating my to become the level of a master.
Yet here I am, two months after the end of my contract, sitting in this apartment with a dead end job at Bootlegger (which is better than nothing) barely making rent and watching life pass me by. Starring at girls from a distance with a cocky smile on my face thinking to myself, 'I could go out with that' yet go home starring at a disappointed at a reflection of myself in the mirror...
...alone
Where has my Charismatic Influence disappeared to? Where has my ambition disappeared to? Has Project Hollywood Revival become an illusion in my mind? An unreachable goal? Have I been living a lie for the past two years?
NO! I refuse to be beat down. I promised myself that I would exceed any Pick Up Artist. I vowed I would help others reach their dreams, shatter their shells of disappointment.
I have come to far to sit back and let the world take me and become a pawn in its sick twisted game.
I know no one will read this. This blog site has no appeal to anyone. Can I blame them? But this isn't for them. It's for me. I need to place my tangent thoughts and somehow sort through them.
So I had one F-Close with a girl. Had a decent relationship. Destroyed my 'V' card which was mocking me for the three years I was in the military. I been dwelling on that one success, and refused to prove myself anymore. Why?
I pulled Picasso to the side one day at West Edmonton Mall and asked him what his long term goals are. I helped him push to A2. Yet I can't answer my own question? I can't push myself as much as i could, or should?
It wasn't until I took my best friend out for dinner for his birthday, that we both realized we were waiting for life to change our course. He wants to be a famous director - and the man has crazy ideas that would revolutionize the movie department, yet he's made no move to pursue that career. I was realizing, that I was starring at myself in his eyes. I saw potential hidden, an image of a power being hidden in their depths.
Suddenly I changed character. i became Charisma again. Strong, confident, determined. I was painting a picture of promise and success.
Now I have to re-sort my goals, my plans; just as my best friend has done today, to sort his future career. I promise that by Dec 08, I will master the Venusian Arts.
- Charisma
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