Personal Thoughts

It has come to my realization that I have a lot to build on and digest from the boot camp.

One of the few things I have noticed with my personality since I returned to Edmonton, is that I become more outspoken.

I can't help but think about Matador's advice on the personality matrix. I need to work on the base of my character/avatar. What kind of person do I want to display myself as? How am I going to take the necessary steps to get to that point? And what traits should I focus the most attention on?

I want to portray myself who is fun, playful and warm - while being un-needy. This is of course my main foundations for my emotional state, and how I should be all the time. I want to be percieved as someone who is ambitious - I want to re-focus my attention in becoming an owner of my own line of bar/club chain. Becoming a master Venusian Artist is still one of my priorties, but theres more to life than picking up women, and its building the foundation of who you are.

Once thats set up - the rest will follow. Besides, imagine the social value of owning one of the most hip night clubs in LA.

I want to be interesting and fascinating, so when I speak, i create a sense of awe and excitment. Where people are on the edge of their seats and biting every word. Not because I believe in the material, but I believe in me.

I want to be percieved as a loyal and trustworthy person. So when shit goes down hill, I'm the one to turn to. And I can be relyed on for such reasons. This in turn will build a stronger bond to my social circle.

To tie to the point of being fascinating, I also want to articulate the way I speak and emote. If its true that body language speaks for 80% of communication, I need to portray that. Facial expressions, and the energy and enthusiasm I put into my body and fluid motions will effect my Charismatic edge.

I also want to be known as a risk taker. I'm sick of sitting on the side lines waiting for things to happen. I want adventures, stories of how crazy something went, because of a decision I made in the heat of the moment. I want stories that are worth telling, so I need to live them first.

I want to be strong and disciplined. I would very much like to get back into the martial arts, building the sense of pride and calm mind set with the art. I miss the discpline of a strong body. If i can't get back into Tae Kwon Do, because of conflicting schedules, I should at the very least get back into shape.

And finally, I want to be humorous. I want people to say, wow, that guy is hilarious! He's just amazing! So I need to focus on this, and figure what makes someone humorous and fun. I have a general idea... but i need to step outside my comfort zone.


More to follow on my own personal thoughts.... I need to get them in words to digest every piece. =) But I'm making progress!