Chasing The Dream

Tonight has been a breakthrough for me.

I lay back in bed, typing away on my laptop; wondering what went wrong tonight?

My mind is racing frantically - realizing that there are a lot of obstacles overcoming my path. Ranging as far from - the high bitch shields in the city fo Edmonton - to the large oversized community that overcomes my ability to be free and experiment game. How will I overcome these objections. Am I any closer to reaching my main goal in becoming a Master Venusian Artist? Can I devote my life and energy into it - and somehow juggle my friends and family?

I am a standstill. But I think within the next few paragraphs, the answer will come to me. I just need to type out my internal thoughts and find a solution and a way to muster past this obstacle.

So where to begin? I guess the best place would be to start at assessing my goals and figuring out what I want to do, and how to get to it.

The Goal: To Become a Master Venusian Artist/Instructor for Mystery

How to get it:

1) Devote 3-5 days a week to getting out of the house
2) Spend more time writing personal Field Reports and Personal Thoughts. Break down my approaches to a systematic method.
3) Commit my energy to a few selected PUAs - make a personal crew. Each with strengths to draw from. Help them, and they will help me.
4) Leave the PUAedmonton community. The dream of running it, was a fleeting one, and does not appeal to me. I will no longer share my personal experiences with people who have nothing to offer to me.
5) Study MM, review bootcamp notes, pratice pratice pratice.
6) Move to Toronto (which leads to the next goal in a moment here)

The Goal: Be Happy

How to get it:

1) Start with a morning workout routine. It doesn't have to be much - but I need to devote time to get faster, stronger and better. And I can't do that with running to work and heading off to the bar every three seconds. Half card deck should be standard.
2) Eat healthier. Fruits, veggies and protien goes a long way. Take the effort to go and buy what I need. Safeway is around the corner.
3) Tan every day I have off. I like being dark, and it makes me feel good.
4) Find a new job - something that pays me semi decent, and requries me to get more time off. I may take a budget cut - but i need to sort priorities.
5) Keep touch and basis with everyone. Don't need to eat out, but I can at least meet up with friends if theyre out for food.

The Goal: Move to Toronto

How to get it:

1) Pay off my credit cards A.S.A.P
2) Consider finanical advisment - and creat a plan
3) Consult citifinancial for additional loan.
4) Prevent future credit card usage
5) Look for a job that will expand across country
6) Get a driver's license

more to follow.